Our father is gone. And as for Monica, if she is out there somewhere, I can only imagine how she must have been haunted all along, maybe even daily, by all of this.
Benjamin and I, I don’t believe either of us has any burning desire to find Monica and bring her to justice. Deep down, I guess I think that she probably has served her life sentence for her crimes several times over – mental anguish that may have grown even beyond what I might imagine.
For now, Benjamin and I just plan to move on, to continue our lives as we have been living them. We will try.
I cannot speak for both of us, of course. But for me, the greatest difficulty will be learning to live with the legacy of my father. As I look back, I fear, it may be a diminished legacy.
It’s always difficult when you first realize that someone you idolize might be mortal after all.
I am haunted by my father.