Angry Man! Go Away!
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I do not know were to start, so I will start with what brought me to this point. I just came out of a very rough relationship, started well, but there was an addiction again, 3rd girl in a row. I saw it from the beginning, I remember thinking every time she went to the VLT's that I should be crazy to go down that path again, but I thought she was different. I was wrong, my fault. Her addiction went from the VLT's, to the computer, social networking sites and games. After 5 years, 4 on again, off again and having given her everything in my heart and mind she left me over the dumbest thing. I have been driven to a point that she said would never happen. She moved on instantly and I almost hurt her new boyfriend, I would have crossed that line, and it was close...being run off the road in a 100 km/h spin out would of hurt. Then getting out of the car and finishing it...I am in a dark place right now, I guess the reason why I have been betrayed by most of my girlfriends was to get me to this point, to take this kind of hurt without taking the knowledge I have learnt in explosives, bomb making, weaponry, wiring, stalking, human hunting, forensics, psychology and using it. And with my ability to see the big picture, I have new ways to do things, build things, or eliminate things. I have learnt how to drive and anticipate what others will do. I have followed countless people over the years, in some cases almost to the point of stalking them. I have learnt how to stay in the shadows, to hide in plain site with out being seen, in a car or on foot. To see some thing coming and try to counter it or out think it, takes practice and patience. Love blinds you, signs that were staring you in the face, signs that you were stumbling over and some that hit you hard in the face, are all ignored because the thought of being alone forever is everyone's fear, and those few who don't fear it, I envy. When you find love, someone says they love you, then leave you, it is amazing how much it takes to stay in control, this is one of those stories. How to stay in control, even if your not sure how. At the time of writing this book, I am 36 years old, living in Southern Alberta. I turn 37 in about 3 months, and I have no biological children. I say that with a little hesitation, although I am not her biological parent, you will read about an ex-girlfriend who is named SUBJECT X, who has this little girl that is just amazing. I loved SUBJECT X and fell in love with a family that wasn't mine, and never was going to be mine. In the end I was thrown away, after over 4 years, but it is my own fault. I saw the signs over the years, but I was to close to stay away. They say you can not change a person, they say do not expect that person to change. What happens if that person says they want to change, what if they say they want all same things you want? And they say all this months before you even start seeing each other. It doesn't matter how you were raised, how much the one you're with hurts you, violence is not a solution. If the one you're with pushes you that far, what do you do? Do you smack them? Do you walk out? Do you kick them out? Do you try to talk it out? When your completely frustrated, what would you do? How far would you go?
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Angry Man! Go Away! presents the true story of the life of author Raje E. Voega, who was raised by an abusive father who beat his mother and him often. The oldest of eight children, he was very harsh with his siblings due to his father’s actions; even so, as an adult he has never hit or been violent with anyone.
Voega was born on the western coast of Canada and moved to Alberta when he was almost six. As a child, he was moved around a lot, from Edmonton to northern Alberta. At fifteen, he went to live with his father in Edmonton but only stayed for six months, although he remained in the area until he was nineteen. Eventually, he moved from that area and settled in western Canada, finally ending up in southern Alberta. In his early twenties, he started down a path that might have led his imprisonment or death, but he was able to turn his life around.
Recently, he ended a relationship that put him in a very dark and hopeless place. But instead of crossing a line that would have destroyed both his life and others’ lives forever, he decided to write about the violence that exists in families today. By telling his story in this memoir, he hopes to save others from the violence that he has endured, and at times created, in his family.
About the Author
Raje E. Voega currently delivering pizzas, has no formal education, is not married, and has no children. The oldest of eight children, he has owned six small businesses across the three western provinces of Canada. He has lived in Lethbridge, Alberta, Canada, for the last seven years. This is his first book.