Thoughts From Within

Broken, he finds himself wounded. His past won’t allow him to live. His future is just a thought. Time stands still. Happiness choked out by disappointment, he tries to be brave but he is bound by his memory. Pressing forward but on a path with no direction, he puts on his game face to hide the scars. He is tired of thinking, his joy has been stolen. Conflict upon conflict, he wrestles with is desires for happiness, love, peace and contentment. He toys with what could be but fears the worst, what has been. Broken spirit, he sits alone. His heart has never mended. His mind seeks peace like that of a child in his mother’s arms. He longs for the everlasting love; the one without fault or blame. But, he refrains from giving; giving the part of himself that is a requirement, a prerequisite, a key and a crucial component of happiness. It’s too much for him. Like a heavy burden, he chooses not to carry it. Broken, he is shattered into small fragments. They are scattered throughout his forty plus years of life. He appears strong but is weakened by the stake driven through his heart. His heart beats a different beat. His pulse is shallow. He holds on because he has to and not always because he wants to. He pushes away those that love him, even those closest to him. Wrapped in anguish, he is trapped in his own mind, his own world, while life passes him by. At times just a mere existence, he hopes no one notices. Sometimes he smiles or laughs but his broken heart dictates his moves, his thoughts and his words. He is broken, damage goods, in desperate need of repair. Broken, like a delicate flower tossed in the storm of life, he has been uprooted, torn, beaten down, and trapped in the fence of despair. He struggles to survive. He cries out to be rescued, to be saved from the dreadful pit that leaves him exhausted. There is no sunlight where he is; the blinds of his heart are pulled shut. Broken, he is cold and finds no comfort in the dark. There will be a new day. A day of celebration. He will lift up his eyes and his burdens will be light. He will find peace, love and happiness. The shackles of bad experiences, regrets and disappointments will be loosened. His heart will skip a beat. He will no longer hide behind excuses. He will give of himself once more without fear, because he will no longer be broken.