What a strange question she thought. She did not respond initially. She just thought about this. She then said, “I have been betrayed and I have been solemn. I have been sad, displeased and despondent but unhappy I don’t think so. Loss of joy – no. I have been downcast, I have wished for a better day. I have seen the sorrows of life but also I have rejoiced in the rise of the sun to greet a new day. I have seen the beauty in the eyes of a newborn. I have seen the happiness of love and marriage. I have seen the hardships of life and have felt that the grass might be greener on the other side. When I experienced the other side I have seen that this is not true but unhappy no. Unhappiness is a momentary emotions and it can wrap itself tightly around you but joy comes from the soul. I have walked the road of despair, I have rejoiced in the love of a brother as well as the betrayal of a family. I have felt the uncertainty of decision and the need for a response, not knowing what I should do. I have seen the depression of others and the overwhelming heaviness of isolation and life itself but no I have not been unhappy. I have awoken alone and lonely. I have cried for the emptiness of the day and the hurts of others. I have seen the emptiness of death and the joy of death. I have seen the unexpected in the ordinary events of life. I have heard the cries of the animals and seen the destruction of exquisiteness yet none of these have lead me to lack of joy. Joy and happiness can still be present in the most devastating times and events. Life is contrast. Emotions are contrast but most important is that you remain happy with yourself.” There was a tranquility apparent to all as the words settle in their minds.
“What, with all the emotions you have felt, you have never been unhappy, without joy?” Zee was astonished by her words.
She smiled and the smile lit up the day. “I sense it is hard for you to understand my words.”
“As a matter of fact, I think you lie to yourself.” Zee responded.
“No Zee, I do not lie to you or to myself. Life is contract and in this contrast is wrapped in the arms of knowledge. Life has a scheme, a play written many years ago, to be played out. The happenings, the events allotted to each of us is part of a bigger plan. We need to let ourselves be part of this play of life. We grow in the knowledge of living, all aspects both big and small, mingled together to help lead us on. It is with the acceptance of our greatness, unique and priceless, of our infinitesimal role in this play of life which flows from within that binds us to life. We are a representation of the creator of life and within each event lies happiness if we strive to understand the lessons of the event. If the momentary feeling of unhappiness was to invade, then it is up to us to change. When we change the way we look at things then the things we look at change. Joy is the ability to see and feel all that surrounds you and all that you are. If unhappiness was left unchecked then the role we are granted is forever changed. So no my friend; my joy, my happiness is mine and mine alone. You must find your own role in this play of life.”